Richmond Park London

Exploring Richmond Park with the family.

It’s unbelievable really that it’s only 10 miles Central London and covers 2500 acres.

This week I have been stepping up how much I walk and exercise to get into a steady routine built into my everyday life. I want to be as fit and as focused as I possibly can for my trek up Kilimanjaro for Child Bereavement UK.

Truth be told I have been frightened of days like this ‘family days’ and being happy. It was after a family morning out that my husband got ‘the call’ the one thing you never want to have ‘there’s been a car accident and Asten’s been airlifted to hospital’. Even at that moment I never thought it was going to be as bad as it turned out. Since then whilst we have days out I am always worried about being too happy of letting myself be completely relaxed. But I am getting there knowing that I cannot change what happened and I can live my life with those still around me making the days we have as happy as I can. This is the unseen mental health journey of grief. To make a donation to my trek for Child Bereavement UK please donate here.

Parking was free and plentiful today at Roehampton Gate. We picked this gate as bikes could be hired here. Perfect place to explore safely with the family.

April 12, 2019 0

The Challenge Ahead

So it’s beginning to sink in that I have taken on this mammoth challenge to climb Kilimanjaro. The biggest adventures I have ever taken on has been with my family. And for Kilimanjaro whilst I will have a fabulous team I am going to be without my family. And I can tell you now I am going to miss them terribly.

However I am very excited.

Today we took a trip to Go Outdoors and what wonderful staff they had so willing to help and willing to share their knowledge and to let me try things. It will be the first trip of many to outdoor shops, looking to ensure I have the most suitable kit at my fingertips whilst undertaking the challenge.

This picture was when we went on a Go Below adventure in Wales.

April 6, 2019 0

Kilimanjaro

I never thought I would be that person, never thought I would loose someone so precious to me, Asten a wonderful daughter, amazing sister and loyal friend. After a serious car accident Asten was air lifted to hospital but devastatingly she lost the battle for her life later the same day.

This has completely shattered our lives, we have had to learn to live again and to deal with the huge unseen mental health issues.

Since Asten passed on 21st May 2017 I have had some of the most heartbreaking conversations with my 2 boys, ‘mum I am so scared when am I going to die?’ and ‘what’s the point if we are just going to die anyway’. And I have felt like a failure not being able to give them the answers they desire. And its thanks to the support of my family, friends and bereavement Councillor that I am getting through this unimaginable loss.

Showing the children that life can go on and it’s what you make of it, is one of the reasons why I am taking on the Kilimanjaro challenge for Child Bereavement UK. Secondly that others can have access to the support after such a loss and finally for me to show myself how strong I still am and I will continue to be.

So if you can please support every single penny will go towards helping a parent or sibling who has been bereaved of a son/daughter/brother/sister/mum/dad.

Support my Kilimanjaro Trek

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April 2, 2019 0

Monday Motivation

Don’t feel bad for making decisions that upset other people. Your not responsible for their happiness your responsible for yours.

April 1, 2019 0

Woodland Wonder

What a beautiful evening to take a walk through the woods to see the flower carpets appearing.

So many wood anemones, primroses and a sprinkling of bluebells.

Taking in the fresh air and listening to an audiobook no better way to have some me time.

March 28, 2019 0

The Rope Walk

Was a beautiful day in Sandwich today. As I walked along the rope walk this morning my mind in a place of rest and relaxation. And I can tell you it’s been a while since I have felt this relaxed, getting outside really does help you mind release stress.

March 25, 2019 0

Exploring

Just the two of us 💗 exploring the Kent countryside. With our @OrdnanceSurvey map and app. We love being outside and seeing each season of the year.

March 24, 2019 0

What is enough?

Just being together is enough.

There is so much pressure on everyone to have material things and whilst we do need some material things what is enough?

I have clothes to wear and a house to live in.

I am lucky to have children, have a car, go on holidays and I have a job.

It’s easy to get carried away with trying to keep up with what the world shows us in images on social media.

I challenge you to take a moment to think about what you would miss the most of it was gone.

For me being together with my family is priceless. The memories of things we have done places we have been make me happier than any new pair or jeans or a car. Everything else I can work out we don’t need the most expensive or newest one out.